#15 A Different Self

Episodes 13 thru 16 are a discussion panel on gaslighting from a 2018 Kelly Nicole Foundation event. The panel followed a screening of our documentary “I Want You to Hear Me: The Kelly Nicole Story” (available on our YouTube channel) and an in-depth examination the lyrics of “Hate Becoming,” the title track from Kelly Nicole’s posthumous debut album. Focused on the line "It's all lies left. It's all true right?" the panel of mental health experts, nonprofit leaders and an Army combat veteran will explore gaslighting, self-doubt, self-belief and recovery from trauma with audience interaction.

Panelists:

Dr. Birgit Kelly: PhD Director of Clinical Services at Tubman with clinical focus on complex trauma work.

Matt Lovitz: Operation Iraqi Freedom Veteran and Executive Director of Veteran Valor Farm.

Theresa Holl: Executive Director of the Kelly Nicole Foundation.

More information on Kelly Nicole's life and music here: kellynicole.com/life

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#14 Defining Gaslighting

Episodes 13 thru 16 are a discussion panel on gaslighting from a 2018 Kelly Nicole Foundation event. The panel followed a screening of our documentary “I Want You to Hear Me: The Kelly Nicole Story” (available on our YouTube channel) and an in-depth examination the lyrics of “Hate Becoming,” the title track from Kelly Nicole’s posthumous debut album. Focused on the line "It's all lies left. It's all true right?" the panel of mental health experts, nonprofit leaders and an Army combat veteran will explore gaslighting, self-doubt, self-belief and recovery from trauma with audience interaction.

Panelists:

Dr. Birgit Kelly: PhD Director of Clinical Services at Tubman with clinical focus on complex trauma work.

Matt Lovitz: Operation Iraqi Freedom Veteran and Executive Director of Veteran Valor Farm.

Theresa Holl: Executive Director of the Kelly Nicole Foundation.

More information on Kelly Nicole's life and music here: kellynicole.com/life

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#13 Gaslighting is Real

Episodes 13 thru 16 are a discussion panel on gaslighting from a 2018 Kelly Nicole Foundation event. The panel followed a screening of our documentary “I Want You to Hear Me: The Kelly Nicole Story” (available on our YouTube channel) and an in-depth examination the lyrics of “Hate Becoming,” the title track from Kelly Nicole’s posthumous debut album. Focused on the line "It's all lies left. It's all true right?" the panel of mental health experts, nonprofit leaders and an Army combat veteran will explore gaslighting, self-doubt, self-belief and recovery from trauma with audience interaction.

Panelists:

Dr. Birgit Kelly: PhD Director of Clinical Services at Tubman with clinical focus on complex trauma work.

Matt Lovitz: Operation Iraqi Freedom Veteran and Executive Director of Veteran Valor Farm.

Theresa Holl: Executive Director of the Kelly Nicole Foundation.

More information on Kelly Nicole's life and music here: kellynicole.com/life

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#12 Talk About Recovery

Carmen Berzinski 4 of 4. Clinical therapist Carmen Berzinski joins us to talk psychology, what's wrong w/ treatment, ptsd & eating disorders, self-trust, shame, recovery and causing trouble w/ Kelly Nicole.

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#11 Bitch You're Crazy - Give Me The Keys

Carmen Berzinski 3 of 4. Clinical therapist Carmen Berzinski joins us to talk psychology, what's wrong w/ treatment, ptsd & eating disorders, self-trust, shame, recovery and causing trouble w/ Kelly Nicole.

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#10 The Thing I Can Control

Carmen Berzinski 2 of 4. Clinical therapist Carmen Berzinski joins us to talk psychology, what's wrong w/ treatment, ptsd & eating disorders, self-trust, shame, recovery and causing trouble w/ Kelly Nicole.

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#9 Young Troublemakers

Carmen Berzinski 1 of 4. Clinical therapist Carmen Berzinski joins us to talk psychology, what's wrong w/ treatment, ptsd & eating disorders, self-trust, shame, recovery and causing trouble w/ Kelly Nicole.

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#8 Tension & Release

Derek S. Abrams 4 of 4. Ministry drummer Derek S. Abrams (Dereksabrams.com) joins us from Europe for an inside look at performing as part of an industrial music institution, the craft of drumming, musicianship and how to create powerful songs . As always, you can support the Kelly Nicole Foundation with shopping and donations at kellynicolefoundation.org

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#7 Hookers & Drug Dealers

Derek S. Abrams 3 of 4. Ministry drummer Derek S. Abrams (Dereksabrams.com) joins us from Europe for an inside look at performing as part of an industrial music institution, collaboration with Kelly Nicole on Hate Becoming and a few graphic details about life on the road... As always, this podcast isn't for kids.

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#6 So this is where we die?

Derek S. Abrams 2 of 4. Ministry drummer Derek S. Abrams (Dereksabrams.com) joins us from Europe for an inside look at performing as part of an industrial music institution, collaboration with Kelly Nicole on Hate Becoming and a few graphic details about life on the road... As always, this podcast isn't for kids.

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#2 Pain Becomes Comfortable

“You don’t need anyone’s approval.”

Joshua Davis 2 of 4. Survivor and musician Joshua Davis joins us in this deeply personal interview series to discuss childhood trauma, its effects and consequences as well as PTSD, addiction, sobriety, relationships, recovery, the healing power of music and life at 50. Themes include difficult content of a sexual nature, discretion is advised.

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#1 A Survivor Speaks

“Music heals.”

Joshua Davis 1 of 4. Survivor and musician Joshua Davis joins us in this deeply personal interview series to discuss childhood trauma, its effects and consequences as well as PTSD, addiction, sobriety, relationships, recovery, the healing power of music and life at 50. Themes include difficult content of a sexual nature, discretion is advised.

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